166–You Look So Good to Me

what is my work here?
does it matter?
when you are
everywhere my eyes
can see every set of
eyes are yours every
small green plant
raising arms in love
every tree holding
breath and soil and water
you look so good to me
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163–Wanting

i spend my days working
toward the positive
converting each obsession
with what is wrong with
the deep passion of what i want
how different from what i have
been taught as a woman as a
small girl in religious self-denial
how little i have known of you
how you love each piece of wanting
you placed inside my guidance system
when you invited me to be born here now

Cross My Heart and Hope

It was so much easier then, when just holding
your breath through the tunnel was enough,
we said, to make whoever you loved love you back.

Another sure method: to hold up your feet
when you crossed over railroad tracks. On a bridge,
we put both hands on the ceiling. In class,

we wrote simple notes. “Do you love me? Circle
yes or no.” What did we know then of love
except that we wanted it, preferably 4ever

2gether. We read all the rules in black marker
on the playground—or at slumber parties reading
Judy Blume out loud. We were so curious about

the how of it. And I suppose I am curious, still.
Could I love you better? And what would it look like?
And where do we go from here? They didn’t go

this far in paperback books or on see saw etchings—
past happily ever after to the part where we choose
to eat dark greens together, choose bitterness sometimes

over sweet. I don’t know the answers, love, do not
even know what I want except that today, going
over the tracks, I lifted my legs to be sure that you love me.