I light red candles for the table. I sing to the trees
as they leaf. I practice mundane ecstasy. I wash
breakfast dishes in pear-scented suds and look
out the window at slow burgeoning buds
and know, too, of the soft grey nubs
where the peach flowers will not come this year—
December’s frost was too much with them
and the cold turned them dull and barren.
And further in the distance, the vacant acre of dirt
where the garden will grow once the soil gets warm.
Already my fingers itch to dig in the rows.
Already we’ve planted the radishes that no one
in our home wants to eat, but such pleasure
to see them grow so fast, welcome proof that things ripen
when given the chance. Some things take so long to season—
like mothering and forgiveness. And learning to love things
as they are. And these constant lessons in letting go of fear.
And so I recite love poems to the sky. I thank the flour
as I knead it before I leave it to rise. I open the doors
of the heart, I fling them wide, wider, wider still.
I look for divinity in green vegetables as I dice. Oh
mountain top, oh river lodge, oh retreat by the sea.
Oh home, this familiar place where we practice ecstasy.