Monthly Archives: April 2017
Grief Loss and Black Holes
my throat gets raw
tears spill my belly growls
feel hell at my heels
only to sit in perfect
silence for ten minutes
until that unmistakable
peace comes oozing into
pores and bones forcing me to climb
out of a vast black hole
just as if it were only mud
filled and not a cosmic reversed star
sucking the life out of whatever holds
me in orbit like a reverse mortgage
changing the way of everything
leaving me cleaned out and ready to live again
A poem with no name
Not Afraid of Dying
tuesday was the day
to get vaccinated so i
could hold our new grandboy
dreading the side affects
i entered the Montrose
County Health and Human
Services where it costs $40 instead
of Walgreen’s $64.99 i hate the
medical industrial complex and
don’t darken it’s doors except in
rare occasions like this, yes, as i dreaded
i got feverish and achy, so tired
everything i did required all my will power
but lying awake last night i wondered
if maybe i had actually gone there
to speak to the guy who was a diabetic
in a coma for ten days he said rather
die than go through that again which
started us talking about not fearing death
and i told him about my friend Silvana and
how she told me, I don’t believe in anything
after but if there is something i’ll come back
and let you know, which she did. as i got
up to get my shot he was smiling and we were
celebrating in a very small way our connection
to each other and everything forever in the universe